17 Years Old Girl Started Drawing Her Hallucinations After Being Diagnosed With Schizophrenia

This young girl always knew she was an artist, but she truly understood the meaning of it when she started dealing with mental illness. I didn’t use ‘mentally ill’ because when she expresses herself, she avoids using these words. She said exactly; “I despise the term ‘mentally ill’; it implies that who I am as a person is fundamentally corrupted and broken.” 

It is totally understandable because as she said, she feels the look of others changing when she tells them what is her daily challenge. People only have the image and stereotypes shown by the media and the movies. She wants to change to change the way we look at those stigmas and that’s why she is so open to talk about what she lives with.

The name of this artist with schizophrenia is Kate and she is now 18 years old.

She draws a lot of her hallucinations, because it helps her to deal with them.

In her hallucinations, she sometimes hears voices, sound effects, random noises, and she often sees bugs, faces, and disembodied eyes.

She describes this one as: “Inanimate objects will look like a Van Gogh painting: warped and swirly.”

She hallucinates bugs quite often, and her depression makes her feel worthless like a fly. These bug illustrations represent her illness.

This is a quote by an artist named Jory, and it’s really speaking to her.

This is the illustration of something that crawls out of the vent in her ceiling and makes clicking noises. Sometimes, she sees it crawling out from underneath things.

This is a self-portrait that she painted when she saw her eyes doing this in the mirror.

Her emotions are sometimes really intense, and she hears voices telling her to light things on fire.

Here is an example of the disembodied eyes she sees. She said that they surface in a mounds or masses on her walls or floors. They warp and move.

She calls it Birdie, she sings to her sometimes.

Her self esteem is at its lowest, and she feels insignificant. Kate said: “I always wish I could shapeshift into a “prettier” person”.

This is how she sees eyes sometimes, with more of those odd colors and circles.

Her biggest struggles are; organization, communication, paranoia, depression, anxiety, and managing her emotions.

This strong girl is really open to talk about what she deals with and she wants to raise the awareness of her illness. She said: “what I live with isn’t easy and it can be debilitating, but I’m not living out on the streets screaming about alien abductions. That’s not to say there aren’t people out there who are that severe – there are. However, there are also people like me who just stay at home most of the time cooped up in their room. It is a spectrum of symptoms with varying severity levels. Each person’s experience is unique”. This statement should open our eyes and make us realize that generalizing is never a good thing.

 

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